Die Young

Wasting time with a cigarette

You're like smoke inside my lungs

Get me high but give me death

They say I'm old enough to die young

Thinking blindly as I regret

Without a high, I'll lie alone

Fill my lungs up one by one

I just found out that I've got a disease that will last me my whole life

I'll need multiple surgeries every ten years just to fight

It's put shit into perspective, made me see things in hindsight

If I don't change then we'll reunite on the other side

Many times, God tested me

But I'll still never be a religious body

Man, Jesus could visit from Bethlehem

And I'd still be conflicted and I am not sorry

I'm starting to wonder if I'm just unlucky

Or if I'm attracted to melancholy

I'm losing my breath and it kills my oesophagus

But I can't die without sharing my story

These people around me, even the close ones

Doubt the severity of my issues

But they don't know half of the shit that I've been through

And never did I ever ask for no tissues

Some of it's my fault, that I'll admit

But this character building, I hope don't continue

Your family say you're a disappointment

But when you're not here, they'll be sayin' they miss you

Matthew, 22:39 said "love thy neighbour as thyself"

Well, that right there is definitive proof

'Cause mine made my life unlimited hell

Turned my apartment right into a cell

And my sentence was seven months inside of jail

Funny 'cause if I never had escaped

Then I would've spent seven months inside a jail

Wasting time with a cigarette

You're like smoke inside my lungs

Get me high but give me death

They say I'm old enough to die young

Thinking blindly as I regret

Without a high, I'll lie alone

Fill my lungs up one by one

The doctor told me that I might not live to see my grandchildren

That also means that I might not see the lives of my children

Every morning, I'm uncontrollably sick and it's building

I'm on three medications but they're just a temporary fix for the feeling

Twenty-one and I'm diagnosed

My body feels like I'm gon' die at home

I'm worried 'bout leaving my partner early

Cuz without a high, I'll lie alone

And I'll die alone, in an admin job

Minimum wage in an admin job

Dreams of being athletic are gone

As a musical artist, I've been and gone

Tell that guy that I made it out

That I'm away now and I'll say it loud

But there's a cost and how am I gonna pay it? How?

There's a pile of bills, I can't lay it down

I can't see a way out

I got less money coming in than I got coming out

Can't say it loud

Cuz reality sets in, I got more chance of losing my house than being around

Just to live in it

My mental health is thickening

My physical state is sickening

I hope there's people listening out there in the same position I'm living in

When it's morning time and I'm shivering

When the electricity is flickering

I just don't know if I'll make it but I've got to try and at least envision it

Wasting time with a cigarette

You're like smoke inside my lungs

Get me high but give me death

They say I'm old enough to die young

Thinking blindly as I regret

Without a high, I'll lie alone

Fill my lungs up one by one