The Thought Of Letting Go / July 6

I told myself to kiss you

I thought it would be fine

But little did I know

This would lead to my demise

I told my shrink about you

But filled his ears with lies

I told him you were perfect

Had no harm behind those eyes

I told my friends you liked me

They told me I was wrong

Chris laughed right in my face

So I went back to writing songs

I told my mom about you

She smiled from ear to ear

I finally loved somebody

But then you disappeared

Why'd you disappear

I told you all my secrets

I thought that you were mine

But you let go of my hand that night

I feel it all the time

A skeptical believer

Fell into the light

Cause nothing else could heal the pain

You made me feel that night

So I went to my friend's house

I started breaking down

I couldn't stand the thought of you being here

But not around

And nothing lasts forever

But we try our best to fight

The thought of letting go

Will it ever feel alright

Will I ever feel alright

If you give me more I might just drown

Leave me behind

Get out this town

I feel the records start to break

I know you're just not what I need

Don't know what's happening to me

There ain't much more that I can take

I'm breaking down

You hear me now

Hear me now

Hear me at all

My walls are closing in it's way too loud

I missed another call

I've been terrified of when and where

This life will take its turn

I've been stuck inside this head of mine

I only make it worse

How much longer will this hurt

Give me peace of mind

Cause I realized I always put you first

It's a blessing and a curse

Will I be alright

I thought I was fine

But it takes a lot of work

Oh it takes a lot of work

Oh I'm changing yeah I know

Cause I can't do this on my own

Lead me down that empty road

I'm too scared to be alone

I'm too scared to be alone

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