Rather Pretend

Rather pretend you aint leave kuz my actions

I've been gaining attention from music but you not around to experience it happen

You was right i got way to comfortable with everything i did kuz how long we lasted

I been lost in head so bad I haven't had an appetite feel like im fasting

Hope this wasn't cost

My brothers say I'm winning kuz my numbers going up but I'm feeling like i lost

Aint believe the text I read that night swear to god i hadda drop my jaw

Everyone around me asking if I'm sturdy kuz they could just tell that I'm off

Feel like you pushing me outta your way

I know you looking growth & peace right now you just couldve asked for space

Maybe im looking outta my perspective n me and you don't see things the same

Swear to god i hate how love can turn to pain

I been high for a couple of days tryna understand but i cant think straight

I'm tryna tell you that ill wait n you start calling my bluff

Damn lil mama you tough

You don't understand how much you mean to me right now and that's the thing that sucks

I wanna shoot a text but you probably gon get annoyed if i keep hitting you up

(Like)

Maybe I'm a burden

Maybe I'm the person that's holding you back

The reason the why you hurting

Kuz you feel like the person you love is not loving or showing it back

I'm nervous

And I don't even know what to do right now I just been on ya IG lurking

While you tryna find ya purpose

Baby can we talk it out person

Can we have a convo I just wanna speak

Haven't heard the sound of ya voice in a week

I need confirmation should I be waiting on you or you want me to leave

I been contemplating on things I did in the past to you I'm green

Just lemme know right now if I'm tryna start up a car with the engine on E