Right Now

Every smile on my face, every laugh from my throat, is all fake. I feel like I don't even know what true happiness feels like anymore. You tell me to smile more, but you don't even know how hard it is to just live.

I just don't know what to do. All these headaches that just won't go away are here to stay. I'm in so much pain right now. Please help me now.

Chorus: Feels like I'm walking on the edge right now. I don't even know what to say right now. I'm sorry that I let you down. I feel like I'm a disappointment to you. I seriously don't know what to do. I feel like I'm drowning right now. Emotions are drowning me right now.

It's funny how fast your life can change. A dream to a nightmare that fast. I wasn't even given time to react before my childhood was taken from me. I was forced to make friends, lose friends, and start a whole new life. I don't know what to do right now. I'm tired of pretending that I'm okay when I'm clearly not.

I just don't know what to do. All these headaches that just won't go away are here to stay. I'm in so much pain right now. Please help me now.

Chorus: Feels like I'm walking on the edge right now. I don't even know what to say right now. I'm sorry that I let you down. I feel like I'm a disappointment to you. I seriously don't know what to do. I feel like I'm drowning right now. Emotions are drowning me right now.

Bridge: The lesson I've learned from life is that you can't get your hopes up for anything. 'Cause if you do, you'll be disappointed and thrown off the edge again. As if getting hit in the chest from a bullet isn't enough. I don't know how many more hits I can take, how many more injuries I can take. The next one could be fatal, but then again, I'd finally be free from all this torture and these flames within me. I don't know what to do anymore. I need help desperately, but I don't know how to ask. Someone, please help me. I feel like I've been living a lie. I act happy around people, but if they only know what I have to go through each day; the hurt, the pain. I actually think the bullet would hurt less. But then again, I'm numb, and I don't feel anything. Pain is welcome if it wants to come. I don't even care anymore. Whatever happens to me, I don't even care anymore. I've given up hope. So help me or don't help me, it's all the same. It doesn't really matter much to me because I'll never be free from all this misery.

Chorus: Feels like I'm walking on the edge right now. I don't even know what to say right now. I'm sorry that I let you down. I feel like I'm a disappointment to you. I seriously don't know what to do. I feel like I'm drowning right now. Emotions are drowning me right now.

Feels like I'm walking on the edge right now. I don't even know what to say right now. I'm sorry that I let you down. I feel like I'm a disappointment to you. I seriously don't know what to do. I feel like I'm drowning right now. Emotions are drowning me right now.