Razorblade Salvation

I know that times were hard

I know that you've been feeling down

If you only knew how I'm feeling for you

If I could take your pain

I wish that I could wash it all away

If you only knew how I'm feeling

Mommy I'm sorry if my first letter made you cry

To be honest with you I don't think that I wanna die

Sometimes I feel like that I'm cancerous in other lives

That's prolley why I drink at night and sleep till 4 or 5

It's kinda hard walking through life with my distorted eyes

When I was younger I was stupid and I thought I thrived

I thought a lot about everything I said in the letter

And questioned whether or not if I was dead you'd be better

You think my shorty would be happy if I never met her

It's too late now mommy I could never forget her

Could never forget how she told me to love

Cause my father and  my grandmother is always above

It's glory above you know that daddy taught me to thug

And every time we was with nanny she'd bombard me with hugs (Damn)

I miss em mommy and it's hard to believe

That I've grown and I don't understand that why did they leave

(Better to die and sleep then never wake and sleep)

(Then linger on and dare to live when your souls life is gone)

You been running around for so long

You been hurting yourself too much

You keep messing around with darkness

You're the one whose losing

You been running around for so long

You been hurting yourself too much

You keep messing around with darkness

You're the one whose losing

Mommy I think I'm a that try to stick around a while

I got a niece and my nephews they need me around a while

I think they need me cause they hitting that age

And they ain't trying to speak to Lenny cause they spitting they rage

And mommy speaking of Lenny I think my brother need me

And we Italian so you know my mother loved to feed me

And it's the little things you do for me that make it worth it

Like when I play a joint that we did and you say it's perfect

And when Jay got knocked you knew that I was hurt

You told me to my heart in a song and it worked

I promised him I'd be there when he got out the bing

You ain't raised me to be a liar ma that's not my thing

I told him that I'd hold him down the whole time that he gone

They kept him locked in a cage but that's cool cause he's strong

So mommy keep that first letter i wrote you on the low

I think I wanna stay alive and see if I can grow

You've been running around for so long

You've been hurting yourself too much

You keep messing around with darkness

You're the one whose losing

You been running around for so long

You been hurting yourself too much

You keep messing around with darkness

You're the one whose losing

I know that times were hard

I know that you've been feeling down

If you only knew how I'm feeling for you

If I could take your pain

I wish that I could wash it all away

If you only knew how I'm feeling

Baby you keep fuckin'

I love you, I love you

I love you