Talk 2 You (feat. Big Klef)

I don't know what I'm doing

So many things I do and I don't know why

Opportunity hit me knocking at his door, why he ain't letting me in?

Grew up a John Doe, man I wasn't destined to win

In a storm without an umbrella, I got left in the wind

And now the future's what I embody, that's the essence within

I used to think that the devil was like a brother to me

That was until I felt the pain of my mother in me

I fell in love with hugging the heat

Couldn't get enough of them streets

Mad at this whole fucking world, even held a grudge in my sleep

Chip on my shoulder, looking right in the eye of the beholder

It was freezing already, seems every night it's getting colder

Dear God, tell me why everyone got flaws but you

And if I don't fear no man, why should I be appalled of you?

When I got my back against the wall, that's how these cards was drew

But being an enemy of you, well that's too hard to do

So I'm confused, cause father I no longer know what side I'm on

Fuck everybody, this time I want my own

I try to do right, but wrong seems so easy

I think about it all the time, I don't know what I'm doing

I look up in the sky and I say, "Oh why?"

So many things I do and I don't know why

I wanna talk to you, Lord, yeah

I wanna talk to you

Every time I look up in that mirror, me and him have a talk

First I speak then I stop to listen while he giving his thoughts

You going crazy out there boy, did you consider the cost?

Cause ever since Bob died, it's like your vision's been off

The tide's rough and you crying them same rivers you crossed

But you gotta fight through them mistakes for all them **** you lost

I replied, you like a friend that I never had

And I got you by my side and for that I'm forever glad

But it's like my heart is more frozen than the Everglades

Still ducking the flame, stuck inside the devil's maze

See through my eyes and you'll be looking through a rebel's gaze

Reaching for a light just as a harp up in heaven plays

I've been stacking money, same clothes on for seven days

Getting nowhere, it's like having a job that never pays

This shit is no fair, I guess the sunshine never stays

I'm trapped in the rain and deemed a victim to the weather's ways

So I pray

I try to do right, but wrong seems so easy

I think about it all the time, I don't know what I'm doing

I look up in the sky and I say, "Oh why?"

So many things I do and I don't know why

I wanna talk to you, Lord, yeah

I wanna talk to you

Most of the time I'm too occupied with running from myself

I just wanna be me, but I'm becoming something else

The reaper hunting for me to take my soul from my flesh

And some adjacent to anguish, chasing my goals is a test

I'm so impatient, paintings of how I'm feeling will reflect

Daffodils with no water, friends who got killed, **** death

And I'm losing my mind, cause even when I try my hardest

What I usually find is a dead end, I die regardless

But at least while I'm here, will I get far and what's my limit?

How long do I gotta starve? If I'm a star then I'm the dimmest

God I'm searching for guidance, I'm where it's violent

I'm ashamed, no use attempting to hide it

I try to fight it but the pain, I inhale it

It's spreading throughout my body like a plague

I switch my life with a phony quick, he'll probably bite the trade

And get shot down the next day, while I'm reclining like I'm paid

Lord I'm looking for light, so tell me why I'm getting slayed?

I try to do right, but wrong seems so easy

I think about it all the time, I don't know what I'm doing

I look up in the sky and I say, "Oh why?"

So many things I do and I don't know why

I wanna talk to you, Lord, yeah

I wanna talk to you