Deeper Than Love

Some day I hope for a lover to kill me It's the closest I can hope to get to anybody It's the closest I can come to being really free And it's a ring of questions on my mind lately Like will I find a love that lasts as long as my life? Or will I die before ever becoming a wife? And I'm wondering if I'm even the marrying kind How can I give you my life when I know you're just gonna die? Is there anything stronger than biology? Is love being ruined by technology? Nowadays commitment seems like a burden to carry I don't wanna think about it I don't wanna (I don't wanna) Think about it (think about it) I don't wanna (I don't wanna) Think about it (think about it) I don't wanna (I don't wanna) Think about it (think about it) I don't wanna think about it It's too scary And the closest I can come to being any free Is letting my lover perform experiments on me Observe and analyze And empirically hypothesize 'Cause I want to know real love so desperately But I think it's gotta happen scientifically 'Cause I'm scared, afraid of real intimacy You know the kind they say happens psychologically Dressed up like a surgeon, you cut open my heart Remove the brain and leave the body in charge No more emotions taking control We both pick a part and play out our role Further than fantasy Deeper than love could ever be Further than fantasy Deeper than love could ever be And the only best friends I ever made Were people I knew I didn't have to see every day The closest to true love I ever came Was with someone I kept many miles away 'Cause I'm wary of eliminating distance This could surely be the death of any romance 'Cause I'm shitty and I'm lame and I'm dumb and I'm a bore And once you get to know me you won't love me anymore And that possibility worries me the most Not harm or abuse or becoming a ghost It's the closeness, the intimacy I'm afraid it might kill me Further than fantasy Deeper than love could ever be Further than fantasy Deeper than love could ever be