(Verse 1: FURZS)

I'll be the first one to say that I fucked up

Truth be I don't hide no facts

From the life that I had, from the good, from the bad

From the way that I bounced right back

From the house to the amount that I bound up in stacks

And I come down then I run around till I crash

And it's dumb now but I done found where I'm at

And I'm proud fuck no but I'm out of all of that just wait

Then I realised that real life comes with the struggles and it comes with the grinds

And the nights that you might feel like life is a lie

But you fight to survive for the time of your life

And I tried to revive but provided a lie

And I lived up on the edge and I dived straight into hell but I paid the price

Left with the bills and I paid the shit twice

Went and burnt a few bridges then I changed a few lives

Can't take it back all the wrongs but I’ll try

Someday I hope I can make it alright

We lived in the dark, hit the shade through the blinds

How do I make it make sense

Hating myself in no way no one else

Drowning in addiction that way cause it helps

They cannot say I cannot save myself

But I'm just ready to die for the way that I felt

But I'm blaming myself for the cards that I dealt

And this is my doing, I ruin myself

And it's fuck bread cause I do it so well

I fucked up a good chick by letting her love me

Never did judge me, wasn't afraid that I'm a druggy

Gave up a good bitch to become, fucking bad bitch wanna hoard for their money

I bender for days, she just waiting to hug me

I'm spending the case, wouldn't take her to lunch

Were your parents ashamed that she's laid with a junkie

If that was my daughter of course I would punch me

Go where the gun be run me come pump me

Throw me in the back of the boot then go dump me

Trashed out then I thrashed it was ugly

I smashed out in a trap house, don't judge me

Fuck me I'm the first to admit it the worst

If I didn't work when I did it hurt, but it wasn't worth it

I wish that I listened, stuck up in my own thoughts, cuffed like a prison

Fuck my decisions, I'm changing positions

I'm chained to addiction my brain's on a mission

Fuck a bad bitch with cocaine on the dishes

I say that it is and it is, but I wish it went a little different

Like I never wanna turn back, I learnt that I burned all the work that I worked

That you weren’t ever first lad I think I'm better in a dirt lad

I think I'm better in a dirt lad