I was a contributing factor to my own demise

My ego swelling cause the easy ride was surely mine

Had never felt the pain of losing someone close to me

Security came from a person, I was full of pride

Stuck in a cycle, knowing the right but doing wrong

See my infatuation led me to darkness

My real path hidden, my real glass ceiling, I gradually strayed

To keep it going would require sacrifice to be made

And I can't compromise

That ain't in the perfect plan

Delayed it to the point where He almost forced the hand

It was way too peak, I was way too weak

I didn't know it but I needed all that space to breathe

So He could give me revelations, had to say to myself

How could you expect to love her, when you didn't love yourself

You got all this love to give, and nobody to give it to

How about you give it to the One who first gave it to you, and that's real

I've been tryna find a better day now

I just needed something for my soul

Memories it seems are in the way now

Tryna stop myself from going cold

Empty cause there's nothing left to say now

Feel like I've been moving way too slow

I can't see the end, I'm losing patience

Don't know how it can still get me so low

The time you gave me was some of the best of my life

I worked to make sure that a smile was on your face every night

I learned the lessons of unselfishness and losing my pride

I saw the world in new perspectives and not just through my eyes

I saw beauty in every way and likened it to above

I know our Maker made you patiently and filled you with love

Believed that there was greater purpose in what people called luck

And so I fought with all my might until my values were cut

I'm sorry for my desperation but you understand why

I made you part of my existence I know my soul was tied

Although I never saw it coming, unaware at the time

My mother warned me bout the consequence I know that she tried

But it's the ignorance of youth, how else could I learn

Dream about it to this day, seems I can't escape the burn

I know there's pieces on the floor, it should be none of my concern

But I hope you're blessed with every bit of peace that you deserve, and that's real

I've been tryna find a better day now

I just needed something for my soul

Memories it seems are in the way now

Tryna stop myself from going cold

Empty cause there's nothing left to say now

Feel like I've been moving way too slow

I can't see the end, I'm losing patience

Don't know how it can still get me so low

I've been tryna find a better day now

I just needed something for my soul

Memories it seems are in the way now

Tryna stop myself from going cold

Empty cause there's nothing left to say now

Feel like I've been moving way too slow

I can't see the end, I'm losing patience

Don't know how it can still get me so low