Disorder

Thoughts of sorrow race through my head Gloomy days awaiting my presence I think I'll just stay in today Will the halls seem empty without my face? Life leaves a bitter taste The grass stays dead without the rain Claustrophobic feelings, ease towards me As I search for an easier way to breath Life is fleeting I cannot deny Sometimes I picture myself in an alternate life (and I'm not fine) Where I awake to find My aspirations, no longer out of line Nothing is louder to me Than the sound of silence blocking positivity A constant war inside my head Makes it harder each day to leave my bed Harder each day to leave my bed Putting on a fake smile Getting through the day It's all a routine I'll be alright Just get through the night Tomorrow I'll find That everything's fine (I'll be alright just get through tonight Tomorrow I'll find that I'm losing this fight) Holding on to things that drag me down I feel I'm stuck in a cycle with no easy way out I'd ask you for help but I'm afraid to speak The last thing I want is to show I'm defeat (show I'm defeat) Nothing is louder to me Than the sound of silence blocking positivity A constant war inside my head Makes it harder each day to leave my bed Makes it harder each day to leave my bed There's a war inside my head I'll be alright Just get through the night Tomorrow I'll find that everything's fine I'll be alright Just get through the night Tomorrow I'll find that everything's fine