OK with Not OK

I don't really like to get too personal Scared that if I open up it could be hurtful Worried that my secrets can be one day used against me So I keep it bottled in like a can of Pepsi See it's fine and protected until you go and shake it Now even just the slightest bit of pressure gon' break it And then I explode I'm saying "Oh, no!" How can I recover when my cover's been blown I'm supposed to be the pillar The one that people lean on The one to tell you everything is gonna be OK and you can be strong The one to reassure you The one to reaffirm you The one to help you rebuild and salvage any pieces That have burned to the ground I'm not used to being down When I say it out loud it still has a weird sound Bitter taste in my mouth but I ain't gon' lie The hardest thing I'll ever put aside is my pride I have to be OK with not being OK (Ok? Ok?) Ok I have to be OK with not being OK (Ok? Ok?) Ok I have to be OK with not being OK (Ok? Ok?) Ok I have to be OK with not being OK (Ok? Ok?) Ok Man I'm really good at hiding behind a smile This facade has been fooling everybody for a while Been lying through my teeth Surprised that my nose isn't longer than the Nile But I admit I'm living in denial And even saying that sucks I didn't know this boulder would be weighing that much I thought that I could manage it Thought that I could handle it Clearly the jokes on me cuz it's damaging My health and my relationships I need all the help from my acquaintances And as much as I believe that I could do it on my own What's the point of reaching the tippy top when you alone And share all the fruits of your labor with your neighbor Because you can't take your paper when you meet your maker It's all part of the process but I ain't gon' lie The hardest thing I'll ever put aside is my pride I have to be OK with not being OK (Ok? Ok?) Ok I have to be OK with not being OK (Ok? Ok?) Ok I have to be OK with not being OK (Ok? Ok?) Ok I have to be OK with not being OK (Ok? Ok?) Ok