Tryin' Not to Lose Hope

I'm tryin not to lose hope I'm suddenly forgettin how I lost my way Well, ok. I admit it. I kinda lost my faith I'm juggling addictions but tryna walk away So done with these afflictions. Man, what more can I say Lord, I'm tryin. Lord, I'm tryin I'm tryin not to lose hope Lord, I'm tryin. Lord, I'm tryin I'm tryin not to lose hope Give me a sign. Sum'n that says I'm not wastin my time Sum'n that will keep me from going crazy because I swear I'm just losing my mind Feeling like I'm at the end of the line Frustrated but I can't sit here and whine I'm using laughter to keep me from crying I'm not ok. I keep saying I'm fine But I know I was built for this by design It's raining now but the sun is gone shine I know God would never leave me behind Ain't no mountain here that I couldn't climb Devil want my soul but no, I decline He want me to take my life and resign Few mistakes I wish I could take back but too bad I can't rewind Sorry for makin messes. Often times I fall short The losses became the lessons when I began to learn to fall forward And I thought that I was progressin. I was certain. I was sure But somewhere along the road think I made a wrong turn & got off course I'm suddenly forgettin how I lost my way Well, ok. I admit it. I kinda lost my faith I'm juggling addictions but tryna walk away So done with these afflictions. Man, what more can I say Lord, I'm tryin. Lord, I'm tryin I'm tryin not to lose hope Lord, I'm tryin. Lord, I'm tryin I'm tryin not to lose hope I couldn't explain how many times I slipped when I started to switch What I know is I'm not too disciplined to walk away from stuff that's so hard to resist It's hard to commit to keep putting pieces together from problems that's hard to be fixed If I had a wish. Tell you, I sure wouldn't waste it. I just wanna live and not exist I used to wonder how much pain and hurt I was supposed to endure But I'm better now. I took a step back from the unhealthy ways I was copin before I turned around to look very closely and carefully read signs I chose to ignore As soon as I broke all the cycles, I showed I was ready for more I'm not a mistake. and I just can't keep walkin round with my head low Like God isn't great I'm not out of shape. But people and things that aren't good for me must go I'm droppin the weight It's not a debate. and yes, sometimes I do be second guessing if I got what it takes I just want a great life so I won't be wantin to plot my escape I'm suddenly forgettin how I lost my way Well, ok. I admit it. I kinda lost my faith I'm juggling addictions but tryna walk away So done with these afflictions. Man, what more can I say Lord, I'm tryin. Lord, I'm tryin I'm tryin not to lose hope Lord, I'm tryin. Lord, I'm tryin I'm tryin not to lose hope