Behind all pointless sufferings, my lifetime leitmotif, undefined, I fought a sticky slumbering and all-absorbing disbelief to leave behind a man I’d been

A priceless lesson unforeseen. Rejected analysis of reality

Changed, upgraded, firmer than before, becoming more and more insensible to external irritants – a continuous war

This apathy is making me dispensable and burdens evermore

Here comes a moment when your sight pierces through surrounding

People with a sizzling spite so typical for disregard abounding

Minor moods prevail over trivial life

Oppressive thoughts constantly keep in suspense producing an external skeleton of stoic and escapist

The saddest thing is you are an architect of simultaneous treacherous destruction aimed at human possessions built over centuries

A collapsing outcast, responsible for genocide of its own consciousness, a master who acts as defiler exiled by its own organism

A perfect computer, unstudied, under-explored, killing all hopes to find a happiness

Is that what our nature like? A quintessence of scrappiness?

Are we born for humble service to the torments caused by cognitive perversions?

All the prospects lost?