I Laugh at Myself (Commentary)

This is the part where I laugh at myself 

And the world for thinking that things could actually change.

Just like the old me you knew once before who

Almost destroyed and lost everything to this same damn thing.

I'm once again in my head, I'm way over my head

And I can't seem to find a place to put all this pain.

My hope is a fraud and I can't talk to God

I believed in the good of the world and now I'm just ashamed.

I want to drink 'cause I'm mad and I'm angry but I swore, I promised my wife that I wouldn't drink again.

There were so many chances I had that I wasted as time went on by that were never to be seen again.

And I never felt bad or guilty about moving on with my life but I could never move on from you in the end.

So I fight for love, come on break my heart.