I've grown to be more prone to listening, than talking

And that's why I feel like

When I do talk I don't talk about the things that I really think about

I... I talk about like on-the-surface things that don't really enable me to be closer to the person I am talking to

And when they express their opinions, I tend to agree

Because I want to be an agreeable person

And, they would like me

But on the surface level, you know, like not the deeper level

I don't know, it's like a safe spot

It's very comfortable to be a listener because I feel like we're all listeners

Whether, because we watch movies, we watch the news and then we read comics, and we're the viewers, you know

We're the person that listens to the story

And listening is another skillset that is very difficult to master

But for me, I think it's just a comfortable space to be in

And sharing yourself to the world is the scary part

It's just... it's so easy to hide yourself from everyone and to be private

I've been trying to act how I truly feel

Instead of, trying so hard to

Hold up to this facade that I think that is charming, this funny... girl, or whatever

Most of the time I'm just... really... numb

So that's why I've been constantly in chilled zone