Is It the Best?

Lately I've been thinking How you've been I can't say I'm happy for you Lately When I'm drinking In between the scenes I can't say It's what I love to do You planned your escape Fuck this life that you hate Because non of it ever deserved you I knew it was fake But I tried anyway Everything that I said was the truth I'm up on the wall So you want me to sink You don't like me at all How did this get so sick I don't know why the fuck But it did made think Is it the best mistake I made Steady It's all ready I've blacked out I don't know my lines I must say It's what I usually do Hate me Like I'm Freddy Cause Nothing matters to me But I can't say There's nothing I can do You packed all your hate From this life its your faith Because you never really deserved it I knew it was late But I tried anyway All the things that I said didn't worth it I'm up on the wall So you want me to sink You don't like me at all How did this get so sick I don't know why the fuck But it did made me think Is the best mistake Just wait One thought escaped They call it faith I don't know how we got here I made mistakes Built walls to break I'm living off the best fear