Survival Mode

I'm mean to myself So that no one else can do it And I suck at making choices And I feel like no one listens Overthinking everything I get too scared to say anything My mind is always moving a thousand thoughts a second (A thousand thoughts a second) I don't want you to feel bad for me I've been doing this on my own It's not like I want you to leave I just got comfortable being alone But don't leave me alone But don't leave me alone I beat myself up Feel like I'll never be good enough Can't get in touch with my emotions Been living in survival mode Can I just be honest? It's been weighing on my conscience I feel that I am hard to love (Hard to love) I don't want you to feel bad for me I've been doing this on my own It's not like I want you to leave I just got comfortable being alone But don't leave me alone But don't leave me alone (Don't leave)