Self Medicated

A cynic, I'm hopeless, I'm broken

There is no light inside of me

I'm tired, I'm restless, I'm lonesome

But I can never sleep

My mind plays games when I'm alone now

You said the worst things to get inside my head

Intoxication takes control now

Self-medication takes its grip

I'm crawling on the floor

(Take deep breaths, your heart is racing)

There's clawing at the door

Oh God, don't let 'em take me

Now I have to find a way out

I have to find my voice

I'm entertaining thoughts that are no good for me

When I'm completely numb, a darkness takes me

I turn into someone I hate completely

It's me against the world

(Take cover, you cannot fix me)

And just throw me to the wolves

I'm a victim of self-pity

Now I have to find a way out

I have to find my voice

I'm entertaining thoughts that are no good for me

Now I have to find a way back

I have to make a choice

I'm never losing sight of what's in front of me

I've given up

I'm in for a lifetime of

Second-guessing everything that I've become

My mind plays games when I'm alone

Self-medicated, intoxication takes control

Now I have to find my way out

I have to find my voice

These thoughts are no good for me

Now I have to find a way out

I have to find my voice

I'm entertaining thoughts that are no good for me

Now I have to find a way back

I have to make a choice

I'm never losing sight of what's in front of me