Standing in My Own Way (Part Two) [feat. Katie Dove Dixon]

Song for my only niece Living out somewhere down South East You might never hear the music Your father and I are still feuding Over some bull*, doesn't matter in the scene of things But pride is a beastly king And while we're waiting for the other to flinch Time does ever so inch Until three years past, unclaimed riches I follow you via Facebook pictures First steps and words small enough to hurl Through the air, pearl in a rough world And recent events, meant I recently stepped To the far flung Stockholm, far from London Might be a while, fore we get to share a smile In a space, forecasts ain't great and You deserve more than a bad uncle Just cuz your dad and I are uncool To not put aside the drama is so foolish So much more than that and I knew this, but What can I say, I let days slip Stubbornness work, for a stubborn pay slip A whole lifetime did from my grasp slip Remorse the potion I doth sip and Suddenly i get what Bjork had meant How you can miss who you haven't met I guess this is not about you to be honest But how i didn't deliver on what I promised To myself, I'd do better than my own dad Might get a little vexed but never mad But i'm here, and you're there and that's a bit sad Smile and wave As I drown under my own wave I keep standing in my own way Smile and wave As I drown under my own wave I keep standing in my own way Out of sight Out of mind You handle your bags I'll handle mine Handle my breakdown On my own time When we meet When we meet up I will act fine Let another one in is the worst of crimes Let another one in is the worst of crimes If I let you in where am I supposed to hide? Most rapper rapping about demons as a stand-in For they criticism they've been given By most I meant every By every I really mean me Damascus light rains down on me From my shadow I can never be free Less bridges left to burn, more to mend I'm a long term project, that I cannot pretend Sometimes can't tell scaffolding from the brick Believing in oneself is the holiest of tricks Worst enemies from my former friends Basket soggy full of broken eggs Come away bruised, and I come way scarred Midnight cloud obscuring all the stars Short waves to my ex friends from afar Minor chords on this lonely guitar On Facebook everybody's gang gang But the profile's muted so you don't feel the pang Maybe it was cool and the gang until you mauled it Maybe they was calm an you the one who rocked it Maybe you unloosened the cords on the corset Maybe no one wanted to play and so they forfeited Remember when you laughed til the morning soared And nowadays memories are sore. Smile and wave As I drown under my own wave I keep standing in my own way Smile and wave As I drown under my own wave I keep standing in my own way