The Other Side

Sometimes, it's not our tears that measure our pain But it's the fake smiles we put on every day I'm so tired of always acting like I'm okay But it's just so much easier than even trying to explain How I feel to all these people who just can't relate When I smile I wonder if they can see it's fake Or if they can see the pain inside my very eyes Or I've become a master now at always wearing this disguise Because I'm hurting but I try my best to never show it Ask how I am, I say I'm good, but I am at the lowest That I have have been for as long as I've been alive I'm hurting but won't let anyone about what's inside of me I'm in the depths of my own mind, I feel like I'm drowning I'm fighting demons every day, but I feel surrounded This is a battle and I'm losing, I can't hold on no longer They say you grow from all your pain but I'm not getting stronger I'm getting weaker as every day passes by They told me that love's the answer, I responded, "That's a lie" 'Cause I was in love and came out more broken than I went in Now every single day I'm just waiting for heaven, 'cause I don't want to be alive But I don't wanna take my life 'Cause I'm afraid of what's on the other side of death Oh, I don't wanna lose my mind And I don't wanna say goodbye Oh, I just wanna fall into a world of blissfulness But every day is feeling just a little bit colder And every day I feel this weight that's falling down on my shoulders I understand it's in my brain, but still I feel I can't hold it I feel like I am just a man but I'm trying to carry boulders of weight To distract me from this pain Maybe I am just a fool that's inflicting this in my veins And I'm on the highway that I've been trying to avoid And still I wake up every day shocked that I'm still destroyed, oh, I I don't want to be alive But I don't wanna take my life 'Cause I'm afraid of what's on the other side of death Oh, I don't wanna lose my mind And I don't wanna say goodbye Oh, I just wanna fall into a world of blissfulness No I don't want to be alive And I don't wanna take my life 'Cause I'm afraid of what's on the other side of death