Homebound

Since the daylight has lessened, so has my patience and nerve Am I losing my sanity Is this what I deserve I'm staying home I guess I'll open a window I need to let in some light And though it makes me upset I've begun to accept that's as close as I'll get to Stepping outside has shown me just how fragile I've become So I handle myself with care But I'm scared I've come to care too much Now I fight to survive the days As I beg for a chance to see Tomorrow knowing God damn well it will be the same Procrastinating change, it's my fault that I'm this way The place that I once deemed as safe Is now the place where I'm confined Just trapped and afraid I'm constantly checking the clock In between all these waltzes around the room To the symphony of the voices that intrude I'm staying home And I'll use my time to try and comprehend All the shit that I've been in The trees abandon leaves And shiver in the breeze Feeling so alone They wither as they sleep Maybe I'm no different Hiding from my friends While dying in this bed Let me sleep, let me sleep Cause I don't wanna face reality Let me rest, let me rest This is the only chance I'll get Get me the hell out of this