Self-destructive Habit

Crying in the backseat hiding my face Lying with my blurry eyes Watching as the lights go by Someone told me you have found somebody else Heard you even settled down Before we even said goodbye So many times that I've felt guilty But now I'm all alone It's hard to hide this feeling Guess I'm addicted to the hurt Cause when I'm in this city all I see is you And there are certain songs that I can't listen to And everything you do feels like a manic move Doesn't look desperate when you're sightless And everybody told me about the things you do That many turned into a mess trynna fix you I know this way I'll never move on from you You're my favorite self-destructive habit Self-destructive habit So tell me one last time, were you for real? When you cried your eyes out, how did it feel? I really hope you're doing well It has been a while since then Everytime I check my phone And I don't see your name I'm caught up in between relief and what I didn't say No, yeah Cause when I'm in this city all I see is you And there are certain songs that I can't listen to And everything you do feels like a manic move Doesn't look desperate when you're sightless And everybody told me about the things you do That many turned into a mess trynna fix you I know this way I'll never move on from you You're my favorite self-destructive habit Self-destructive habit And although it's so hard for me to see you leaving You will never ever see me bleeding If being in love is just as easy as breathing Then why are we supposed to be healing? No, yeah Cause when I'm in this city all I see is you And there are certain songs that I can't listen to And everything you do feels like a manic move Doesn't look desperate when you're sightless And everybody told me about the things you do That many turned into a mess trynna fix you I know this way I'll never move on from you You're my favorite self-destructive habit