Popular Monster (feat. Onlap)

I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze

I'm not sure if I should say this fuck I'll say it anyway

Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase

I don't know if it's a phase I just wanna feel okay yeah

I battle with depression but the question still remains

Is this post-traumatic stressing or am I suppressing rage?

And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase

Yeah it's not a fucking phase I just wanna feel okay okay?

Yeah I struggle with this bullshit every day

And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage

It obliterates me disintegrates me annihilates me

'Cause I'm about to break down I'm searching for a way out

I'm a liar I'm a cheater I'm a non-believer

I'm a popular popular monster

I break down falling into love now with falling apart

I'm a popular popular monster

I think I'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze

Every wall that I knock down is just a wall that I replace

I'm in a race against myself I try to keep a steady pace

How the fuck will I escape if I never close my case?

Oh my God I keep on stressing every second that I waste

Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take

But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage

Yeah it's not a fucking stage I just wanna feel okay okay

Motherfucker now you got my attention

I need to change a couple things 'cause something is missing

And what if I were to lie? Tell you everything is fine

Every single fucking day I get closer to the grave I am terrified

I fell asleep at the wheel again

Crashed my car just to feel again

It obliterates me disintegrates me annihilates me

'Cause I'm about to break down I'm searching for a way out

I'm a liar I'm a cheater I'm a non-believer

I'm a popular popular monster

I break down falling into love now with falling apart

I'm a popular popular fucking monster

Yeah here we go again motherfucker oh

We're sick and tired of wondering

Praying to a god that you don't believe

We're searching for the truth in the lost and found

So the question I ask is

Oh where the fuck is your god now?

We're sick and tired of wondering

And what if I were to lie? Tell you everything is fine

'Cause I'm about to break down I'm searching for a way out

I'm a liar I'm a cheater I'm a non-believer

I'm a popular popular monster

I break down falling into love now with falling apart

I'm a popular popular monster

I'm a liar I'm a cheater I'm a non-believer

I'm a popular popular monster

I am terrified

I fell asleep at the wheel again

Crashed my car just to feel again

It obliterates me disintegrates me

I'm a popular popular monster