by the end of the night

I go out at night to the back of the garden There's something 'bout my eyes, when I see 'em, I cry But if I'm gonna cry, then I'll do it in private I promise I'll be fine by the end of the night Sometimes I go quiet, but I'm just tired And I don't wanna talk too much Other times, I'm frightened of life 'Cause it's just not what I thought it was I only feel better when I'm crying in middle of night When there's no around me and my heart is broken Crying in the middle of night When there's no one to hold me, but I can reopen Crying in the middle of night When I am wide awake and I should give myself a break Well, I'm trying, trying, trying To be better by the end of night I go out at night so that no one can hear me (no one can hear me) Something 'bout the silence puts me at ease For a second in time, I can see clearly (I can see clearly) For a second in time, I can just breathe So if I go quiet, I'm just tired And I don't wanna talk too much Other times, I'm frightened of life 'Cause it's just not what I thought it was I don't know why But I only feel better when I'm crying in middle of night When there's no around me, and my heart is broken Crying in the middle of night When there's no one to hold me, but I can reopen Crying in the middle of night When I am wide awake, and I should give myself a break Well, I'm trying, trying, trying To be better by the end of night