I cried

For the first time

In a few weeks

Yesterday

I hadn’t

Been thinking

About us

Until you said

That you were

Getting closer

To letting go,

And that he made

You feel

Truly comforted

In the many ways

I couldn’t show

That I couldn’t show you,

In the way

That you deserve,

Deserve to know

I traced a river

On your back

And it flowed

Into a delta

Five years later

Look at all that’s grown

Castles in the clouds,

That we built

Dissipated,

As the sun shone

As the sun shone

I don’t know, I thought from the beginning that it was just going to be like, we’re fully in this together, we’re completely, you know, figuring this out, you know, with each other and that’s awesome and that’s the best thing I’ve ever felt. Um-

But this just kind of feels like it changes things for me a little bit, like… this adds a really weird dynamic. But it really has just put things into perspective for me a little bit more, I guess. Uh- So, I just sort of decided that, yeah, maybe it’s best to take a few days and just process it and that’s sort of what I’ve been doing-

Yeah, there’s been a lot of good in terms of self-reflection that has come out of it. And this really just really solidified, like, maybe a little bit also, like, oh, it really is- like-

It really is over, like, um.

But really, like, being here has just sort of put even more stuff in perspective about, like, I guess, in moving forward, for me, by myself, in my own. Like, and, seeing that as a good thing, seeing that as a freeing thing, seeing that as a liberating thing, you know? Um- So I think it’s a really good big step, but also it’s obviously very hard.