Introspection

Have you ever witnessed someone overdose? Choke on shit, choke on pills 'Tryna swallow up their dose, passed out dead Blank on the floor, hard to swallow, dysphagia blows Count up sheep while trying to sleep While fucked is like counting my toes Only lord knows that shit will fix inside future Laying in some crackheads house, graffiti painting a picture The taste is bitter but the only thing I can do to ease the beater My parents slapping me in the face, my life's a shitter I wish I could go see Finn, the time just seems so near But I keep distancing myself because if I do He wouldn't bear to stand me Looking at my uncut hair I plan to get a haircut, but the drugs are weighing me down there Hey man, we should meet up it's Finn I know you've been so busy, I've been drawing shit with a pen Thinking of my backstory and really trying to introspect The jaw cancer is something that I always forget And I wonder where you are and I wonder where you've been Don't take this in a stalker way, but I drove to your house last week I tried to look around, your car was parked but you couldn't be seen I knocked on the door, whenever you want, call me please Oh god, oh no, I think he has figured me out Paranoid, I guess, but I'm still in doubt I hide behind the covers and decide to shut my mouth I think I hear police sirens right outside this house Nevermind, I think these drugs have made me turn schizo What is on my mind? Nothing, thinking should I go home Maybe I won't be so lonely and if I talk to him on the phone He will help me out and I won't live inside sorrow But no, he will hate me, make me think I'm someone else I hear the town bells, that's my mind starting to melt And I'm trapped inside hell, so I pop open the lid Swallow all the fentanyl, and get fucked up, and turn to shit We knew the world would not be the same I suppose we all thought that one way or another