Not up to Me

I’ve tried to give you up all these months

For too long

Didn’t mean to bother you in your waking but,

I’m alone.

In December nights when we had nothing

But all this time,

Told you this was all or nothing

All or nothing now.

 

So I,

Force in the light

You’ll get a drink and hide

From me all night

It’s not up to me to fight your inner child

But I do every time

I do every time.

You’re bright but not enough to know what I mean

Standing petty at the party you thrive at

When I just want to leave.

Our brains are sick so we can’t help it

You can’t help me

Told you this is all or nothing

And you don’t believe me.

So I,

Force in the light

You’ll get a drink and hide

From me all night

It’s not up to me to fight your inner child

But I do every time

I do every time.

I question beginnings

Before the goodbyes

Know you probably hate me

Feel no remorse this time

Feel no difference with or without

You in my Sight.