Spinning Out & Going Nowhere

I walk through the door way and right past the guard

Put my hand on a handle and don’t try too hard

But the light shines too bright, the air washes cold

I walk in to the wall of a memory

So yeah I take your call in the hospital hall

I spend a week there each morning

Pacing the threshold ‘tween staying and gone

I am aware that it’s life that moves on

Or along

Anyway

What I know

Hard to say

I’m Spinning out and going nowhere

Going mental in my mind

You know I’ve always been a searcher

These days I fear what I might find

The sound of cicadas a sack of potatoes

That's me out in the wilderness

They told me fresh air would do it, help me cut through it

Can you cut through a thing that you’re missing?

I plead with the river I beg of the sky

I ask every god that is going

Deliver me from this treacherous groove

Some sunfucked onion on the move

I’m Spinning out and going nowhere

All potential in my mind

You know I’ve always been a searcher

These days I fear what I might find

Let me tell you again about the way I’ve been feeling

Feeling a lot about the way I’ve been told

Just to notice the feeling as it marks a new moment

But what’s in a feeling but a notice?

Well I used to sleep just to carve at a dream

In my mind in my making

Crystalline, gleaming

Now I close my eyes after I close the curtain and careen just to carve at a memory

So yeah I take your call in the hospital hall

I hover the threshold, unspoken

Electric and missing all that never was

But the story can sub for the truth

I’m spinning out and going nowhere

Going mental in my mind

You know I’ve always been a searcher

These days I fear what I might find

I’m spinning out and going nowhere

All potential in my mind

You know I’ve always been a searcher

These days I fear what I might find

Just spinning out and going nowhere

I’m a lime on the checkout line

You know I’ve always been a searcher

These days I fear what I might find