I done gave my heart to a couple hoes when I shouldn't have

I done passed up moves that I should've grabbed, knowing damn well that we wouldn't last

Then worked so hard to try to fix mistakes what a new bitch cause I'm not my past

Still stuck in it, overcompensating trying to hide the truth got us moving fast

Broke my heart seeing Anthony behind bars calling asking us for bail

And a week before I knew he needed it, I went and spent a rack at a luxe hotel

It ain't the fact that I didn't know

It's the fact that big bro was in a cell and I wasn't there when he needed me, cause I played a bitch who ain't here to tell

Mama V was down on her luck, and I was in the crib, and I was fucked too

Spent thousands on a bitch who left me dry and she was scraping change, when the rest was due

Dave sent me thousands on top of thousands, helping me to try to make it through

When I got back on my feet I ain't never pay 'em back

Shit I bought a room

Took from me to sit lonely I was going through a phase

Not knowing that the best blessings that I ever had was right in my face

Learning how to live with regret and learning it's a survival trait

I'm deeply sorry to the ones I love and because of y'all I'm restoring faith

Took from me to sit lonely I was going through a phase

Not knowing that the best blessings that I ever had was right in my face

Learning how to live with regret and learning it's a survival trait

I'm deeply sorry to the ones I love and because of y'all I'm restoring faith

Owed Crip a couple hundred dollars and I still owe him

I ain't never pay him

Crip told me don't worry about it but it eat me up, feeling like I played him

Bro never changed his heart or the way he looked at me, and just kept it player

Broke my heart when he told me that he still loved me and he kept me in prayer

Times I put my own priorities to the side for a bitch who wouldn't stay

Times I ain't had my own crib but the bitch I had was still getting paid

Bitches looking at me like a trick but I tricked myself till they walked away

It eat me up that my boys never judge

They just give and give and I take and take

I was living out of Anthony crib I ain't have a dollar to my name

I gave my last couple hundred dollars to a bitch who was out here running game

Man bro I tell you I was sick to the stomach staying at walls for days

Bros steady checking on me trying to get me food I ain't never take a plate

When I lost it all them **** held me up and talked to me

And told me that the shit I'm doing shouldn't be a part of me

Knew I loved them bitches but my **** was the start for me

And when they walk away end of the day they got a heart for me

Turned my back on everything that people ever did for me

For pussy that was worthless for my health and all my energy

Turned my back on everything I stood on for some pussy

That was mentally destroying me and physically killing me

Took from me to sit lonely I was going through a phase

Not knowing that the best blessings that I ever had was right in my face

Learning how to live with regret and learning it's a survival trait

I'm deeply sorry to the ones I love and because of y'all I'm restoring faith

Took from me to sit lonely I was going through a phase

Not knowing that the best blessings that I ever had was right in my face

Learning how to live with regret and learning it's a survival trait

I'm deeply sorry to the ones I love and because of y'all I'm restoring faith