I just float on down

Where there's no more sound

I just float on down

Where I can't be found

Watching the sunset behind Brooklyn buildings

I feel crooked feelings like I'm shook up still

From all the fucked up shit that happened to me when I was little

Pocket full of melted skittles, head full of trauma and riddles

I'm tryna find my peace but there is no ease

Just pieces of me that are broken, got me on my knees

Praying for release from the ghosts that I'm squeezing and holding

I believe I am hopeless, after years of this shit I concede to the ocean

I just breathe in and hope that all the water will fill up our lungs and I'm choking

Suddenly it all fades away like a razor blade wrist in a crimson wave

I just slip into this quick blissful decay, I am no longer resisting death's bouquet

I guess that's okay, reside from this earthly masquerade

Resign from my life, twist into the night, say my goodbyes to the light and just drift away

I just float on down

Where there's no more sound

I just float on down

Where I can't be found

I fucking hate this, after years of being sober I still feel like I'm not over all the horror I was faced with

Can't believe I'm gonna say this, can't believe I'm gonna put this in a rap

But maybe it's okay that I

Write a verse about my rapist

Write a verse about the hurt that he asserted when he first debased me

Maybe that's why I am crazy, maybe it's the sexual assault

That pushed me into drugs and drinking

It's got me thinking, breathing heavy and blinking

With my mind on the time that he fucked up my life

In a night, I was too drunk to fight, fucking fell like a knife

Can't believe it

Fucking leave it in, I was bleeding then

13 with a creep 27 military, now I carry all the weight

Into my day all from that evening

I just float on down

Where there's no more sound

I just float on down

Where I can't be found