Echoing my thoughts, put 'em off 'til I throw 'em up

Stuffing 'em in a box, hit the lock, 'til I'm going numb

Looking at where it got me, staring oddly 'til I know to trust

Hoping you still beside me when I finally can find enough

A lotta pain changed my relationships a little

Like I'm not the same, hate this shit, impatiently I widdle at the wall I made

Paint a bunch of pictures tryna distract 'til I find a way

Hanging my depictions of the prison that's inside my brain

I fade away, then I turn to ghost

A waste away, what you saying? Never gave me hope

My ball & chain, it ain't a phase, a weight I cannot hold

It's all a shame, but all i'm saying is we all alone, like

I'm not a sentimental man but I done learned it early

When I depended on the friendships that would end in hurting

Turned me to a beast and now i'm beating down the rest

Imperfect me destroying you, I hope I get it right before you

Let me learn my lesson, you probably better off with doing so

I truly grew into concluding, I'm delusional

From my exclusion to the cruel shit, every time would show

Turned my intuition into giving up and chemicals