Old friends turn to foes

And it sucks when it's those that you really held close

On my own since it feels like everybody's against me

Or resents me, dwelling on it all isn't the best thing

For my state of mind that's barely composed

Least for the moment, i don't care where we go

As long as it's far from here, i'll be better than i am now

Racing thoughts, they make it hard to stand down

Some things don't pan out, that's just a part of life

Gotta embrace the curveballs that rock this heart of mine

Gotta keep on letting loose whenever joy is hard to find

Because the music gives me life and gets me through the darkest nights

I don't go down without a fight, i'm out here swinging on my devils

And i'm thinking you're mistaken if you think you're on my level

Ain't no sleeping in my schedule, i'ma feast on instrumentals instead

Cause with the place my head is at, it's probably best to express

And all i know is that i don't wanna feel this way

Swear depression's feeling all too fucking real these days

Writing to heal this pain that i've been dealing with

Concealing it, not proud of it, but sometimes it's better than having to feel the shit

I just hope that i ain't losing myself

And this is all a rough patch, maybe soon i'll get well

I'll keep on moving through hell and i know the music will help me

I know it isn't the healthiest staying cooped in my shell

That's why i'm breaking out of it, instead of cowering

I'm straight devouring the demons saying i won't amount to shit

Putting hours in and scouring for any sign of hope

It's just another night alone conversing with this microphone

Trying to keep my mind composed and navigate the highs and lows

Felt like i was doing better but that was some time ago

Now i'm drained, sick of holding in this pain

Sick of feeling like i'm breaking, sick of warring with my brain

I just wanna feel okay, to make it through another day

To wear a smile on my face and know for once it isn't fake

Isn't crooked, isn't broken, incomplete, or out of place

Feeling down and i just don't know how to change