Ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy Yeah, snow falling, phone's silent

Ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy Another year ending, I'm still here though

Yeah, yeah, yeah It's Christmas, New Year, I'm alone again

No calls on my phone, just a cold wind Pour another drink, just to feel something

Tryna drown my thoughts, but they still rushin' Fireworks, light up the sky tonight

But my room still dark and my soul ain't right If I got nobody, I got me L.E.D.'s

But these drugs keep whisperin, stay and don't leave

E-e-e-e-e-e Used to love the lights, now they hurt my eyes

Everybody happy on a highlight like Family dinners, yeah, I miss that vibe

Now I'm eatin' pain with a side of lies All these memories hit harder in the cold

When the year better and the truth unfold I've been runnin' from myself all year long

Tellin' everybody I'm good, yeah, I'm strong But the mirror don't lie when they look at me

Dark circles, red eyes, who I used to be I traded real love for a temporary high

Now the silence scream louder every night It's Christmas, New Year, I'm alone again

No calls on my phone, just a cold one Pour another drink just to feel something

Tryna drown my thoughts, but they still rushin' Fireworks, light up the sky tonight

But my room still dark and my soul ain't right If I got nobody, I got me L.E.D.'s

But these drugs keep whisperin, stayin' don't leave

Snow on the streets, but my heart still numb Every pill promise peace, but it never come

They say time heals wounds, but time moves slow When you fightin' demons that you don't show

I see couples kiss at midnight cheers I'm just clinkin' glasses with my fist

Another resolution I'll probably break Say I'll change my life, then repeat mistakes

I don't wanna die, I just don't wanna feel That empty space that be hittin' so real

I miss who I was before the escape Before I let addiction decide my fate

Maybe next year I'll be stronger inside Maybe next year I won't need to hide

If nobody save me, I gotta try Told to my soul instead of gettin' high

It's Christmas, New Year, still breathin' though Still scars on my heart, but I'm growin' slow

If I fall tonight, I'ma stand back up Ain't no peace in a bottle or a double cup

Fireworks fade, but I'm still here Another lonely night, another new year

If I got nobody, I got me at least One day I'll be free

Yeah, one day I'll be free Yeah, one day I'll be free

Proxy Kid