Guarded

I had it all figured out i wouldn't miss a thing i hope you're listening now i hope you hear me, i'm not sure what to say and i don't know how to respond tell me what to do if i can't be good enough i can't believe i stood so close to where i throw it all away there's nothing for me here anymore and no reason i should stay break my heart and make it fast 'cause it's all already lost please say something just not that 'cause i cant feel anything at all i can't believe i stood close to where i throw it all away theres nothing for me here anymore and no reason i should stay tell me something i don't know or i hope i just forgot and i hope he makes you laugh, like i never could and that he's everything i'm not and i just want the truth is it really all that hard? and you won't get to watch when i fall all apart i can't believe i stood so close to where i throw it all away there's nothing for me here anymore and no reason i should stay tell me a lie that i'll believe and then maybe i'll forget and i can't be everything you need, but i meant everything i said i cant believe i stood so close to where i throw it all away