SAFE

Doubting me, can’t blame you cause I do it more,

I make rash decisions just to wonder what I even made them for,

Same thing with friends, leave em knocking at the door,

What am I doing?

Manipulating the mirror,

Keep trying but it don’t make clearer,

It just lets shame appear,

Cause i aint letting the truth come near.

But i see that i need help im broken,

Lord, will you walk through? The doors open.

God, take all my desires,

Throw my ideals in the fire,

I just need a hand,

God, I'm giving up on mine, I'm willing to follow your plan.

Yet there's an imbalance to the times I cry for help, and the times that I accept it,

Don’t know how to get out of it, I struggle within

Don’t know why I’ve neglected…

All that I prayed for,

Telling myself that to fix it I gotta pray more, well sure, but what if I just listened?

And looked at the world around me,

What if I just listened?

Feelin like I'm lonely, but how come I'm surrounded?

What if I just listened?

Looked at the world around me,

My own objectives leave me ridiculed and grounded,

Depending on my own designs,

Just to realize,

My purposes are no place to reside,

Cant feel safe in my own mind,

WHY?

God, save me from myself

I have no where else to turn,

I put my bible on the shelf,

God, im pleading, help me out of this lurch,

Disappointed with the church,

Dont feel love i just feel hurt,

Feel like i can justify if i desert,

God, im trying just feels like i cant assert,

My own thoughts, i provoke and make them worse,

Cant stay above the water, im fully immersed.

Don’t feel depressed, I just feel pressed.

Just feel shame when i reflect,

Cause of what your people said,

I gotta stop living for worldly respect,

I'm sorry, I'm all up in my head.

Im folding under pressure i create,

I dont understand your purpose, but i wont walk away,

Youre my hope and stay,

My job is to remain,

You are perfect, loving but not safe,

I'm saved by your grace.

Just gotta remain faithful.

Yeah, doubting me cant blame you cause i do it more,

Make rash decisions just to wonder what I even made em for.

Same thing with friends, leave em knocking at the door

What am i do-do-do-doing?

Manipulating the mirror,

Keep tyring, but it dont make it clearer,

It just lets shame appear,

Cause i aint letting the truth come near,

But i see i need help im broken

Lord, will you walk through? The doors open.

God, I believe

I believe, Lord help my unbelief

God help me to feel safe,

I'm not safe.