conversations

(Momma’s intro)

Now I have conversations with the pendant looped around my chain

They don’t understand it but it’s not something I can bear enough to explain

Need some angel bandwidth to talk to the ones we lost sooner than we could think

I keep on loses pages, confusing faces ever since I ain’t been the same

I toss & turn when I sleep..

Turned to somebody they don’t wanna see

None of the money could make what it’d mean

To just feel you hug me again, I would be

Forever indebted to whatever presence could grant it & let it be more than just a memory

I won’t ever burn it, stopped the LSD

I’m fine on the surface, it’s deeper than deep though

Surrounded by so many people

No matter where I go, don’t feel home

I’m chasing a shadow, placebo

My friends losing love cause of egos

I’m watching em all thru the peephole

I’m worried but won’t let em see, not a chance in Hell, I’d get the chance to tell em that I’ve been planning on leaving & I’m not myself

Clearly

Dear everybody, I’ll miss you so dearly

Been screaming forever but nobody hears me

Day in & day out been the same, talking yearly

Sincerely, BRKR.

Please don’t let no one come near me

It’s been getting worse talking severely

& then I look back, realize why they fear me

Can’t see if

Try to toughen up

Then it hits me harder

The waves I get hit like a shotgun

I’m just waiting for the day that cops come

& why I haven’t? i know that Mom would hate it

I’d get up with her & God won’t take me

I know it’s sad but it’s how my brain be

Looking back, no wonder they hate me

Save me

I feel like I’ve been breaking

Daily

Pressure stands

But I can’t let it take me

I’m just a man

So don’t blame me if

These conversations paint me different

Haven’t been the same & it’s

Not my fault

But I’m trying hard

Tryna walk with God

So I can see you once

It’s all over

But I’m not over

They said time would heal

But I feel it sticks around

-BR3VD-

I can feel what the knives tryna carve in the skin of my back

Its an image i recognize

It Fit the pattern

And they keep on slashing till the bread collapse

And I ain’t here to brag about it

I can’t trust nobody

having doubts about me

I don’t love no money

It just helps the baggage

When I start remembering

The love I had

And it feel like i wana go back

Just to relive it

To start out, I’d call you to kick it

Let’s roll up a blunt and get stone in the kitchen

It’s simple when nothing is different

See my little bro, and wish I’s a kid again

And then I get to thinking all about the perspective

That’s probably how you had seen me when you left us

It’s trippy, but I see that pain is a blessing

You taught me that teachers ain’t only a lesson

But energy simply just left and neglected

Lately been picking the vices I love

I get so high when I sit in the section

I’m feeling my blues and do what the sky does

-Mind on Piff

and ima sip bub

Then I get them visions of getting it done

It’s funny that no one will keep up with Bread cause he’s sprinting and watching them run

Cause that game really pushing me nothing to cushion

 I love every minute that’s under the sun

I’m puffing the Kush and I’m under assumption that holding my faith up, the kingdom will come

But the pain got a repetition

Pit the bic to my brain

Til flesh is dripping

Man i cant feel a thang

But the way your missing

And I don’t even know where to look I just start with the stars

Its A Mission to pluto to find where you are

Ever since you had passed i been working so hard

And i met with the ashes they left you with jesse

They blessed me

They dont even know all the scars

And the weight that had sank on my soul from afar

And the love that they show me

They didnt even know me,

They called me up

Like I was day one da Homie

my job is to take all that love and go far

(Jef)