Happy birthday

My wish is I won't cry this time

And it'll be okay

Blow the candles, leave the smoke made behind

I keep saying I'll grow out this

That these words are only made in my mind

So why am I still struggling?

Self-awareness won't save us this time

As I'm getting older, I am less aligned

Watching friends hurt themselves

To feel at all we share the meds doctors prescribed

When I call for help, they're the same as I

But we sit together in our burning house

And use the warmth to shine a light

I don't know what it feels like to live that way

To know I'm not alone and you feel the same

It hurts to live this long, and always say

Maybe next year I won't cry on my birthday

I don't know what it feels like to live that way

To know I'm not alone and you feel the same

It hurts to live this long, and always say

Maybe next year I won't cry on my birthday

I'm pleading my ignorance

I'm lucky to have such a plea

I had to turn off the TV

If I ever wanted to be happy?

I sold my teenage years

I sold my teenage years

Now I pay back that debt in therapy

I just want how I used to be

All I have left is misanthropy

As I'm getting older, I am less aligned

Watching friends hurt themselves

To feel at all we share the meds doctors prescribed

When I call for help, they're the same as I

But we sit together in our burning house

And use the warmth to shine a light

I don't know what it feels like to live that way

To know I'm not alone and you feel the same

It hurts to live this long, and always say

Maybe next year I won't cry on my birthday

I don't know what it feels like to live that way

To know I'm not alone and you feel the same

It hurts to live this long, and always say

Maybe next year I won't cry on my birthday

Did God abandon his children?

Wish I was young and naive

It's made a nihilist out of me

Did God abandon his children?

Wish I was young and naive

It's made a nihilist out of me

So please, someone hold me

Say happy birthday to me

If life's no meaning

I'll get older and ignore the feeling

Please, someone hold me

Say happy birthday to me

If life's no meaning

I'll get older and ignore the feeling

I don't know what it feels like to live that way

To know I'm not alone and you feel the same

It hurts to live this long, and always say

Maybe next year I won't cry on my birthday

I don't know what it feels like to live that way

To know I'm not alone and you feel the same

It hurts to live this long, and always say

Maybe next year I won't cry on my birthday