The Idea of You

maybe that was somebody else

maybe i was somebody else

i am sorry (for what it's worth) if that means anything anymore

i think there’s something just wrong with me

i have been wondering

when did you know?  you know, really know?

no no no no no i don’t think that’s going to happen here

you missed all that on the way out

and remember 

i don’t want to remember anymore

maybe i was somebody else?

just go back to the idea of me

WAIT WAKE BREATHE

none of this is happening

BELIEVE HEY YOU TELL YOURSELF

none of this is happening

oh and if I start to tell you anything please don’t pay attention

that’s not really me in there. i would never do that

just go back to the idea of me

go back to that idea 

can you even hear me?

everything absorbing liquid twitching forming something terrible

the sores are gone 

and you can hardly tell now but

that was someone else who isn’t here anymore

WAIT WAKE BREATHE

none of this is happening

BELIEVE HEY YOU TELL YOURSELF

none of this is happening

WAIT WAKE BREATHE

none of this is happening

BELIEVE HEY YOU TELL YOURSELF

none of this is happening

WAIT WAKE BREATHE

hey can you hear? it gets so lonely in here