Stigmata

Silence... The realest shit I never spoke Shut the fuck up Yeah... I told you I'd be back Left for dead near the exit steps beholden to the crack Dragged to the lab, head kept coldly in the cap Strapped to a pad, yet 'least there's something to hold me in the trap Just phonies in the pack. Spliffs twisted, like, "Get lifted!" Dismissive 'cause his sickness don't exist on his pigment Like, "Addiction's for the weak and the wicked." Think I'm listless 'Cause I listen to physicians with the sinister mission of enlistment? They call me timid, convinced it's all in my mind Then got the nerve to turn and tell me all I need is god Shit, you think I asked for this? You blasphemous bitch You're a follower, a fraud. Lost if there's no ass you can kiss I've endured psychosis, bipolar roller coasters And learned to hold my own afloat in an ocean of vultures So who are you to diminish the damn path that I've been through? 'Cause you're simple and can't imagine half of that info People like me don't make it past fifteen A decade later, I've spent half of that shit clean I'm not street, but I ain't pristine, so spare your thoughts shit streak And peep trajectories next time you cross to come get me Bitch This why, I've been lifeless, beat chest This why, I've been writing, deep breaths A taste of wasted. Yeah, this what I've been waiting for A wayward core. The fuck you know about chasing more? The bane of my existence. Now watch this faceless vagrant soar I was down and out, begging for your help Though I don't blame you for leaving, caught in the center of my Hell Had to flee, so be it, but why'd it have to be like this? Unwavering, thrown to the wake but couldn't loan me a life vest? Like you ain't have a landline or memorize my coordinates? Wanted to forget even if it meant my death would be timely yet unfortunate Prayed I'd sink without a bubble to betray you Well this is for my double and all the trouble that he saved you The night I alluded suicide and never heard back High off my ass, cruising in circles in search of a smooth crash Thankfully noticed last moment you don't deserve that Not 'cause you don't deserve bad-you ain't worth my urn with your bird ass Heart turned black. Cracked, while you surged the perfect exit 'Fore you kill yourself for a person, make sure they're worth the effort Couple years down the line, shit, you wouldn't of minded Would've blindsided the afterlife if you ever took a real dive, miss But you? Crooked, spineless. Here's a hook for your highness Hell, I fucking tried, you can't kill a hooker with kindness Fine, look at my grind like you're the cause of it all But you weren't there for the growth, you were just the cause of the fall Bitch This why, I've been lifeless, beat chest This why, I've been writing, deep breaths A taste of wasted. Yeah, this what I've been waiting for A wayward core. The fuck you know about chasing more? The bane of my existence. Now watch this faceless vagrant soar