Struggle to Sleep

I was wrong I struggle to sleep, put me on my knees Good lord, I beg you You gave me strength to stand But then you took it away, I don't deserve this You don't know what it's like to breathe In a world that believes a void is clarity So tell me, conscience can't you help me? I put my faith in you Because I can't make myself believe And now I feel so abused 'Cause through it all, nobody could save me I'm hoping I can get out of here someday I know this soil too well, this pain is what I need Dear conscience, pull me underneath Pull me underneath Confined 'cause I can't clean up And I can't feel anything I'm too fucked up And God, you taught me every word is left unsaid When you're talking to the dead And I'm still talking to myself Conscience can't you help me? I put my faith in you Because I can't make myself believe And now I feel so abused 'Cause through it all, nobody could save me I'm hoping I can get out of here someday I know this soil too well, this pain is what I need Dear conscience, pull me underneath I'll sell my guns, sell my heart and put my blades on the table Clean it up 'cause I'm not stable And do I fight fair, or do I fight myself? I swear, I'm just a half-empty heart Given no chance to restart I may never be good enough for myself I'd better, I'd better Clean up, clean up I didn't think I'd stay I didn't know I'd ever think this way But these days are overwhelming I'd turn away the pain But it's standing right in front of me I shouldn't have to hurt myself Just to feel something Just to feel something So tell me, conscience can't you help me? I put my faith in you Because I can't make myself believe And now I feel so abused 'Cause through it all, nobody could save me I'm hoping I can get out of here someday I know this soil too well, this pain is what I need Dear conscience, pull me underneath