Which way will I take?

Which road will bring me back to hope?

My thousand pathways

So far from where I wanna be

Which way will I take?

Which road will bring me back to hope?

My thousand pathways

So far from where I wanna be

To my family dearest

I won't be here by the time that you hear this

I took the nearest pack of pain killers, and I've never been so serious

And babe, I know that chances are you'll probably find this first

And if you're reading this, I'm sorry, I'm typin' my final words, I hope

No, I know you'll end up hating me

With every single fiber you have inside of your nerves

I left you with a baby, maybe I shoulda tried for her

But trust me, all I've done is get in the way of a life you deserve

How can I live to look you in the eye knowin' we gotta scrape by

With the money you have inside of your purse

My career isn't payin', so why am I tryin' to write a verse

I can't support our little angel in this unstable line of work

And without you by my side, I'm done with my time on Earth

I feel that my life's a curse, if I'm here, the cycle turns

My examples what not to do growin' up was how I'd learn

So don't let the children hear this till they know what life is first, please

Which way will I take?

Which road will bring me back to hope?

My thousand pathways

So far from where I wanna be

Which way will I take?

Which road will bring me back to hope?

My thousand pathways

So far from where I wanna be

My dear kids, I don't know where to start this

Your dad's a fucker, a stupid fucking bastard

Stupid fucking, ah, I'm supposed to be a parent

But I can't say goodbye if I'm pissed off and swearin'

And it's okay if you hate me, I wouldn't like me either

I didn't wanna do this, I didn't wanna leave ya

But mommy said I'm useless and I'm starting to believe her

I hope you're fucking happy, bitch, I wish I didn't meet ya

I never wanted this, I didn't wanna quit

I'm sorry, kids, but I don't wanna live

I got nothing to offer, I wish I had a lot to give

Wish I didn't have such a fucked up family when I was a kid

I wish God would give me a break

I wish I wasn't in pain

I wish this vodka could wash it away

What can I say? In another life, we might meet

Just promise that you won't be like me

Which way will I take?

Which road will bring me back to hope?

My thousand pathways

So far from where I wanna be

Which way will I take?

Which road will bring me back to hope?

My thousand pathways

So far from where I wanna be

What the fuck am I doin' here?

Why's my crib candle-li?

And where's my fucking phone? I need to call the ambulance

If I fucking die here, I ain't comin' back from it

Open your fucking eyes, ropes are tied

Does everything just go black, I think it's actually happenin'

What a fucking change, and this is just an accident

Love my family so much, can't live to see my dad upset

Need to be there for my little daughter 'fore I couldn't bring you happiness

My brother's in prison, I'm supposed to visit

When the screws bring him the news, hows' he gonna handle it?

He just wants me to succeed, I don't need this rappin' shit

Been takin' tablets for weeks

Last time I saw my sister I freaked out and smashed her whip

Threw her down a set of stairs and since then I haven't slept

Told myself my life wasn't supposed to happen yet

I can't maintain or manage this, am I paranoid or passionate?

When you suffer deep down inside, we're all battlin'

But don't wanna admit it, we're blind to what we're damagin'

Anger is contagious and they just blame the cannabis

But I've always felt like this before I even had a spliff

Just too ashamed to say it to your face 'cause I'm a man and shit

And that ain't masculine

And I find this kind of embarrassin'

Fucking bafflin'

Every relationship I've ever had has had a tragic end

When it was only just beginning

'Cause, mom, you fucked me up and now I have no trust in women

I'm just waitin' for girl to cheat, that's how little trust is given

I can't make a girl a single mom, that's fucking unforgiven

I love you to the moon and back, sorry we ain't married yet

There ain't a day that goes by where I don't imagine it

You lookin' fire in the baddest dress

Carryin' our lil' madam in the back of the chariot

While I admire your fashion sense

That's the life I had in mind, I don't plan for this

I don't wanna die, now the panic's setting

Goodbye to everything I haven't said

Which way will I take?

Which road will bring me back to hope?

My thousand pathways

So far from where I wanna be

Which way will I take?

Which road will bring me back to hope?

My thousand pathways

So far from where I wanna be

So far from, so far from

So far from where I wanna be

So far from, so far from

So far from where I wanna be

So far from, so far from

So far from where I wanna be

So far from, so far from

So far from where I wanna be