Useless

I thought for a long time That it began the day you left Saying goodbye on mama's porch Forsaking this troubled woman 'Cause you thought you did your best And couldn't give more You never meant to let me down But finally I was alone She's crazy, it's all her fault But I paid for it anyway You needed to save yourself How come you didn't save me, too? Why did you leave me there? It all began the day he left It must be someone else's fault 'Cause you gave all the love that you had Talking about it with all your friends 'Cause the phone is the only escape From this apartment You never wanted me to suffocate But finally I drowned with you He's a rat, don't ever trust him I don't trust anyone, anyway You needed to save yourself And I'm old enough to understand Why do I always have to understand? You might not realize how it hurt You always did what you could I just waited for something that never came Tried all the ways to kill the pain I'm what I am 'cause of it all I'm glad I chose to save myself I never meant to be ungrateful But you owe it to me I never meant to be rude But it was the only way to say it I never meant to be mad at you But I was angry anyway And it never got me anywhere...