Family over Fame

[Verse 1]

2am in the studio vibes

Working on an album

I'm praying will change lives

For my team

And everybody who's never left my side

Even in the midst of pride we family at all times

Yeah, we family at all times

But if you stab me in the back

With that knife I'll be cutting ties

Depression hit me as a kid

And I thought about suicide

The only thing that kept me here

Was the tears that my mom would cry

Fears that I have inside of never meeting my kids

Or finding a good girl that I don't mess things up with

'Cause I'm too busy

I'm too focused

Chasing this rap shit

Makes me question if the gamble is really worth it

Furthest from being perfect

Though it may seem so on the surface

Forgetting my dad's birthday had me feeling worthless

I moved to LA with Chef

Hoping to find my purpose

I lost myself back home so now I'm steady searching

And searching, yeah

2am in the studio vibes

Working on an album

I'm praying will change lives

For my team and my community

It's deeper than rap

My homie lost his life and he ain't getting it back

What good is all this love if I ain't giving it back

Don't label me the truth if I ain't speaking that facts

Yeah, life is all in how you face it

They say I'll never make

Watch me make it

Watch me make it

[Verse 2]

But I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel guilty

For chasing my dreams

At times it feels like I'm less of a man

And more of a machine

When it comes to my passions

I'm known to take to the extreme

Spending more time on my craft

Than my physical and mental well being

My balance is off

I do not know how to rest

ADHD keeps me going

OCD keeps me obsessed

I feel like I'm running out of time

And that scares me to death

My sisters are growing up

When will I stop and invest

Is this a blessing or a curse that's in disguise

I think it's time to reevaluate and prioritize

Isn't crazy how something that can make you feel alive

Can also be the thing that leads you to your demise

I can't let it

My life

I don't wanna regret it

I know my music better than I know my grandparents

I need to pick up the phone

Call back the people I cherish

Nobody lives forever

Why do I keep treating people

Like they gon' be here forever

How much is fame worth

And can it be returned if it's making the pain worse

I wanna be a star but what's wrong with being on earth

Yeah, what's wrong with staying on earth

[Verse 3]

Jermaine warned me but I didn't listen

Love yours

Don't worry 'bout what the next man gettin'

It's all figment

What matters is non-fiction

Not social media stats

And people who really love you for you

Not where you at

R.I.P. to Nipsey

He changed my perspective on life

When I die

I wonder what they'll say about mine

Dre was too paid

Too laid

Too poppin' on the gram

I don't give a damn

That doesn't amount to who I am

Did I spend time with my fam

Did I treat my girl right

Did I learn from my mistakes

Did I give the world light

Did I use my power for the people

Or myself

Was I stingy with my money

Did I ever try to help

Did I ever make the effort just to do for someone else

Not because they do for me

But just because that's how I felt

No one's perfect

I'm the furthest from it

I just really want my legacy to mean something

I mean nothing to the world and that's okay

'Cause it don't really matter in the first place

When it comes to my kids

I'd rather be first place

Family over fame 'til my death date, yeah