Final Goodbye.

Baby you know im not the type to run,

I hope you dont mind if i wait right here.

Look at the sky flashing blue and red,

Getting rain drops mixed up with my tears.

They tell me to say what im thinkin,

But if i do i might scare myself.

Chains on my feet so im sinkin,

But i dont know how to ask for help.

So instead ill just fantasize

About feeling alright.

Smoking and drinking stay up all night,

Cause i got way too much on my mind.

Too scared to act but im in so much pain

While running out of things to say.

So instead ill just fantasize

About my final goodbye.

Maybe its best if you dont look just go,

Before you see things get too far.

Im still working on my self control,

But now i wanna crash this car.

Dont tell my to say what im feeling,

Cause if i do you might catch yourself

Treating me like a patient

When im too far gone for you to help.

So instead ill just fantasize

About feeling free to speak my mind

Push me off of the roof so i can learn to fly

Just my fragile thoughts and i

Im tired of competing for last place

To many bad dreams so i stay awake

But instead ill just fantasize

About my final goodbye

Im aware what i say makes you uncomfortable

But the things that i think of are very real.

I know im not okay so please dont tell me how to feel

So instead ill just fantasize

About not loosing track of time.

Id be in control of my own life,

With genuine smiles nothin to hide.

Just say what you mean and mean what you say,

And there'd be nothin to cause the pain.

But for now ill just fantasize,

About my final goodbye.