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Some nights I blame myself

Some nights I blame myself

Wish I did more to help

Some nights, some nights,

Some nights, some nights,

Some nights I blame myself

Some nights I blame myself

Wish I did more to help

Some nights, some nights,

Some nights, some nights,

Some nights I blame myself

Some nights I think back to pre-K

When we were just two kids calling our lunch box a brief case

So many plans for the future

You'd be writing down the verses I'd be making the music

Thinking 'bout us getting older makes my head hurt

When school was over, crossed the road up to that red church

Shoot some hoops and act a fool until our chests hurt

Then kick it back and hear Mac speak facts

We stayed distracted from the impact

Hearing him speak I used to think, "That'll never be me."

"And that'll never be somebody on my family tree."

But I failed to think about you in the seat next to me

Not my blood but still a brother, if you bleed then I bleed

That's why these days I can't believe I never checked in more often

Can't believe I didn't call you, say I loved you more often

Deep down I blamed you for not coming when you had a way out

You could've had it so different, look how this played out

You were pure, you were clean, you were a good kid

But in a world of opportunity you barely brushed the surface

It always felt like a cycle

They painted you as worthless with their hand on the bible

Then felt entitled to respect

From the kid they trained to disrespect himself in his head

And yet they probably still blame you for how they shaped you to live

But buddy, you can prove them all wrong

You can show them that's not who they say you were all along

And from the bottom of my heart I just want you to know

You're my brother til I die and I'll never lose hope

(I'll never lose hope)

Some nights I blame myself

Some nights I blame myself

Wish I did more to help

Some nights, some nights,

Some nights, some nights,

Some nights I blame myself