Dying to Feel Alive

You said

"You should be proud of yourself"

Nothing to be proud about

Getting swallowed up by doubt

Too many days feeling trapped in the sheets

Too many nights feeling thrashed in the streets

And I said

"This is nothing to be proud about"

I'd love to just sit quietly

Feel the sun warm (Feel the sun warm)

All the colder parts in me

I'm dying to feel alive

For the longest time

I've been killing myself trying to fight the reasons why

Dying to feel alive

For the longest time

I've been killing myself for feeling more dead than alive

You said (You said)

"You've got to be kind to yourself"

Nothing to be kind about

Getting swallowed up by doubt

I love you but I'm a fuck up, you see

I spent all my life

Struggling to breathe

So I said (I said)

"Try and spell all my worries out"

I'd love to just sit quietly

Feel the sun warm

I'm dying to feel alive

For the longest time

I've been killing myself trying to fight the reasons why

Dying to feel alive

For the longest time

I've been killing myself for feeling more dead than alive

For the first time in a long time

I'm drunk on nothing but you

(For the first time in a long time)

(For the first time)

For the first time (For the first time)

In a long time (In a long time)

I'm drunk on nothing but you

For the first time in a long time

I'm dying to feel alive

For the longest time

I've been killing myself trying to fight the reasons why

Dying to feel alive

For the longest time

I've been killing myself for feeling more dead than alive