This is what I get living in bitterness

I’m living in a fractured reality

Jealousy magnifies everything that I see

I can’t stop feeling this void inside of me

I can't enjoy others happiness

Not when I’m drowning in my l bitterness

The anger has me in its embrace

My mind cements my feet into place

I am self-destructive

And it’s time to finally accept it

Let my anger rule my days

Let me live my days in repeat

Sometimes I grit my teeth and wait for the blood's taste

Living in bitterness is such a fucking waste

I see the uneven lines that separate me from my happiness

Self-drawn

Worn out over time

What in the world stops me breaking this

I did this to myself

I wrote my own mistakes

I sent myself to hell

I cannot find redemption until I reach out my hand and accept it

I start to drown in the pool of my sentiments

Bitterness fill me from within

This is madness

Self-sabotage at its best