Obvious

What if I got everything I wanted But I didn't You right beside me That would be sad Look what we had Chasm of our past I'm pushing to the back Haven't gotten used to being far away, it's obvious Look at the distance that was made Like how can we possibly recover? Remember when I wrote to you every day? That was such an indelible kind of summer Now I'm falling off track I'm losing my center of gravity The whole situation is a travesty I used to run the race like I was training like an athlete I was so afraid of bеing buddies with the apathy I feel right now I feel it in my soul I'm on solid ground Whenеver the wind blows Abandoned by the people I considered kinfolk Now my confidence is facing a diminuendo Wasn't feeling myself I looked to other people that was elf on a shelf, oh no I ignored what I felt Scared of losing everything. I feel like a failure Even though I got a lot of things accomplished Envy got me spinning now I'm dizzy off the toxins Felt so alive nowadays I'm an imposter Can you really change the heart of a monster? What if I got everything I wanted But I didn't You right beside me That would be sad Look what we had Chasm of our past I'm pushing to the back Haven't gotten used to being far away, it's obvious I know you feel not good enough But you gotta get up again Doubt is weighing heavy on your shoulders Welcome to the 99 percent I'm not a boy wonder I'm not getting younger But I'll still shoot my shot Even with a broke jumper Not everybody nice to you will treat you like a brother So keep it covered I learned to keep it quiet and tucked it all away People come and go you're just another face Everybody's busy and I learned to be okay I'm just tryna accomplish one goal for today Even though I got a lot of things accomplished Envy got me spinning now I'm dizzy off the toxins Felt so alive nowadays I'm an imposter Can you really change the heart of a monster? What if I got everything I wanted But I didn't You right beside me That would be sad Look what we had Chasm of our past I'm pushing to the back Haven't gotten used to being far away, it's obvious What if I got everything I wanted?