Aging Soul

Every day is exactly the same

This is the 'new normal' I try to ignore

With leaden legs, I search for my bearings

Like every other single fuckin godforsaken morning

On the days I genuinely feel okay

It's just a matter of time

Before my desperate joy detonates

Listlessness looming

Circumspect but still yearning

Listlessness looming

How can this be good for me?

I hear your footsteps outside

Treading on the corners of my mind

Aging my soul overnight

I try to resist your cunning tricks

Your gravity's a force to be reckoned with

Your honey promises magnetic

Every day is a new battle with

The onus on me to hold onto sanity

But with the heaviness in my heart & mind

I can't wake up from this no matter how hard I try

Listlessness looming

Be sure to mask your melancholy

Listlessness looming

No one likes you all gloomy

I hear your footsteps outside

Treading on the corners of my mind

Aging my soul overnight

I will escape your clutches

Defy the terror of your eruption

No further need to rhapsodize

Don't tell me this too shall pass

Save your buoyancy for the birds

Don't speak to me of silver linings

Or bright sides or sunny outlooks

And don't you tell me how tired I look

And I won't tell you how hard I'm trying

Just let me be still, please

Don't tease me with your false promises