When We're Apart (feat. Mella & Caspar)

I woke up this morning I was smiling

Then I remembered you were gone

I don't understand why you left me

I wonder what it was I did wrong

I avoid all our favorite places

Because they remind me of you

I can't even look in the mirror

All I see is me without you

I woke up last night in a panic

My heart was pounding like a drum

It took me awhile before I realized

I wasn't in battle, I was home

I didn't want to leave you but I worried

You'd find out the bad things I've done

You look at me with love and adoration

But I know what I'm capable of

I held you every night we were together

You'd cry and thrash about in your sleep

I guess you didn't realize the secrets that you fear

Are already secrets that I keep

I don't want my burdens on your shoulders

I'm ashamed of so many things I've done

I'm still fighting like a soldier

I'm so fearful of what I may become

I love you for your strength and your toughness

I love you for the kindness in your heart

You're fearful of us if we're together

I'm fearful of myself if we're apart

Don't let your wounded heart tear our love apart

Haven't your battles cost enough?

Together we can heal, we have a love that's real

Together we will be twice as tough

I don't want my wounded heart

To tear your life apart

My battles are mine to fight alone

I'm haunted by dark thoughts

Of battles that I fought

That's left my heart cold and hard like stone

I love you for your strength and your toughness

I love you for the kindness in your heart

You're fearful of us if we're together

I'm fearful of myself when we're apart

I'm fearful of us if we're together

I'm so fearful of myself when we're apart